so baby i will wait for you

Friday, October 30, 2009

school was okay.
didnt get my report book cos of the library bks.
after school, went hme.
watched tv, then slept.
woke up, msged diana and nishanth.
currently, listening to songs, doing the exibition planning and msging diana
no mood sia, fucking irritated.
im like seriously cracking my brain and thinking what would break his stone heart.
im in love with the cinta ini song once again:)
tmr will be going to cousin hse, gonna be hell fun!!!! excited:)
aites blog, gtg. bye.

* im still trying, i wonder how to melt your stone heart.

* Happy Birthday Wardah!!!

♥feels like insomnia

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

im like supperr tired, but nvm.
today skul was okay.
diana was kinda early.
walked to skul
diana was supposed to go for cip but the teacher didnt see them?
so ya, had some police talk abt cyber crime.
hist- teacher didnt turn up.
after skul, went for some thing.
then bused to diana's hse.
played guitar. fun!
ate there.
diana's dad a.k.a md khalid quah a.k.a my husband was soo freaking cute.
and he actually said i was cute. omg la. *melts*
i swear he is sooo cute la. lols.
so ya, after that walked to northpnt.
this hannah so funny, she and her songs. lols
so ya, bused back to grandmother's hse.
sad life again, kinda got stuck in the bus cos too crowded.
reached grandmother hse.
thn dad cme to fetch me and sista bak hme.
so nw im hme, currently chatting wiv vimmi akka and faris and msging diana.
tmr skul strts late. yay:)
so ya, gtg. feeling soo tired, no energy oso. byee bloggie:)

*in love with charles!

♥feels like insomnia

Friday, October 23, 2009

For my Best Friend Diana:

i got your back,
and you've got mine
i will help you out, anytime !
to see you hurt or see you cry,
makes me weep and wanna die
and if you agree to never fight
it wouldnt matter, who is right or wrong
if your broken heart needs a mend,
i'll be right here, till the end !
if your cheeks are wet from drops of tears
dont worry, let go of your fears
hand in hand, love is sent
we'll be besties, till the very end !
i cant promise you that i would solve all your problems,
but i can pormise you that i wont let you face them alone
im not perfect,
i'll annoy you
i'll piss you off
or tick you off
and say stupid things
then take them all back
but put that all aside
you'll never find a person
that cares and loves you more than i do
i may have a hundreds of friends,
but no one replaces you.
no other friend is quite like you
no other friend could do exactly what you do
you're the only one that is there for me when i need a friend
we're gonna be tight till the very end
we always have fun when we are together
we always find something to do even though its the stupidest thing ever
no other friend could understand me the way you do
i dont know what i would do without you in my life
i had friends whom came and went
but you were the only one who was by my side all the time
our laughters-[limitless]
our memories-[countless]
our friendship-[endless]
and diana,
if you need to talk,
im here to listen
if you need to cry,
im here to hold you
if you feel lost,
im here to guide you
if you're angry,
i'll be your punching bag
if you're feeling alone,
i'll be there for you !
dude, i pinky promise
you're be my best friend forever:)
you've been there,
when i cried,
when i got heartbroken,
when i laugh,
when there were rough times,
when i was mad,
when i was happy,
when i was jealous,
when i was crazy,
when i was down,
when i was sad,
when i was pretty,
when i was ugly,
basically, we're been thru everythng together.
and thats a girl i call my best friend; diana !
and dude,
i promise tot you,
i will be there no matter what.
and dont' worry
cause if you fall,
you will alwiz have my hand
ystd brought the beginnings and tmr brngs the end
and somewhere in the middle,
we became the best of friends
if you're alone,
i'll be your shadow.
if you want to cry,
i'll be your shoulder.
if you want a hug,
i'll be your pillow
if you're angry,
i'll be your punching bag
if you need to be happy,
i'll be your smile.
but anytime you need a friend,
i'll just be me:)
we walk around
talking to complete strangers and stalking them
laugh for absolutely no reasons at all
have stupid fights thats are over in 10 mins
gang up on the bitch that has a problem with us
make fun of each other
act like we're some insane poeple
and no matter what happens
we're always for each other
through the good times and bad times
i and you, bestfriends forever
and dude, its a promise aint a label

love you tonnes,nur diana quah !
i swear i dont know what to do without you in my life.
i make sure we'll be the two oldies who chase cute guys in our electronic wheelchairs.
and thanks alot for all you've done for me in these years.
ly soo much girl !

♥feels like insomnia

Forget him
Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget the love that i once knew
Remember how i cried all night long
Forget how close we were
Forget how i memerised his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh
Forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved, its past
Forget how he said i love you
Remember that he is gona forever

Fuck caring !
Fuck all those tears i cried for you !
Fuck all the times i tried to make shit right !
Fuck the lies !
Fuck the pain !
Fuck being the one whom ever stuck up for your ass !
Fuck all the 'i love yous' !
Fuck the fact that i gave my heart to someone who just walked all over it !
Fuck all the lies that you denied !
Fuck all the shit i gave up just to be with you !
Fuck the love i had for you !
Fuck you !

Any change, any loss,
Aint gonna make me a victim anymore
Others can shake me, surprise me or dissapoint me
But they arent gonna prevent me from moving on anymore
So get this right
Im moving on

♥feels like insomnia

today was promotion day.
but we hadda go to skul for some stuffs.
so i waited for diana for soo long at busstp(used to it)
got so scared of ants.gross la.lols.
then diana cme at last. walked to skul.
walked up and down the damn stairs. lols, funny.
i was ''sweating'' like hell sia.lols.
after the thng finish, went to nrthpnt with diana,shamini and hannah.
blabla. bused back home.
fucking sway.
saw pavi in the bus. irritating sia.got soo angry la.msged diana.
and this pavi irritated me even more.hiyo.
so ya, reached home.
watched tv.
currently chatting with diana and vimmi akka.
tmr going to rajesh akka's hse.excited:)
aites bloggie, gtg.byeee:))

♥feels like insomnia

Thursday, October 22, 2009

To the one i love;

listen to me,
im sorry for what i did before
i messed it all up
and we all make mistakes
i had no idea
what i was getting myself into
but anyways i just wanted to say
that i am really very sorry.
will you give me another chance?
i might have hurt you in one way or another
but i really didnt mean it.
maybe you didnt care for even one second
but i was thinking about you and how we used to be all these while.
maybe nothing can you bring you back
but no matter what
im gonna keep trying and never give up
becos they never give up on someday you cant go on a day without thinking of.
maybe there isnt a second chance for me.
but im still gonna love you with all my heart.
i was too late to realise how much you meant to me,
but now i realise how much i love you
but you never realised how much i loved you.
as i sit here with very little to do,
my mind is filled with thought of you
as i work hard throughout the day
i miss your smile thats miles away
as i lay down and try to sleep,
its memories of you i always keep
you must know, my love is true
i spend all my time, missing you.
baby, certain things are worth waiting for,
and im gonna wait for you.
my tears might mean nothing to you.
my words might not mean anythnng to you.
you might theow my love in the dustbin
but like i said, nothing is going to make me give up.
i might talk to other guys.
but you're the only one i love.
all i want,
is a second chance
i understand that it is not easy to do
but i still want you know that i love you very much.

♥feels like insomnia

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

sometimes we tend to be in despair
when the person we care about leaves us
but the truth is,
it's not our loss,
it's their's because they left
the only person in the world
who would never give up on them.
have you ever wanted to talk,
but never really dared?
or missed that opportunity
to tell them that you cared?
pretended that it doesnt hurt,
and said its ok?
and spent each day wishing
it would all go away?
acted how you're "supposed to"
so no one knew you cried:
and never let them see
how you really felt inside?
why do i love you so much
when you dont even love me back?
what hurts the most is talking to him
on the phone, like everything is okay.
but then when you hang up
you realise he didnt say ' i love you'
like he used to.
a thousands words didnt bring you back.
a thousand tears didnt bring you back.
a thousand sorrys didnt bring you back.
i know, cause ive tried.
so tell me baby, what's gonna bring you back?

♥feels like insomnia

today was okay.
waited for diana at busstop.
saw hippo.
lmao.
then walked to school with diana.
got back some results.
heartattack la.
after school, did that donation thnge.
then bused to diana hse.
ate at her hse.
blabla.
bused back hme.
was talking to vimmi akka on the way.
so now im hme.
currently, chatting with omar and diana.
haha. funny.
aites bloggie, tc.byee.

♥feels like insomnia

Sunday, October 18, 2009

mum darlz and cousinLOVES

cousinsLOVES

isacc sanjay:))

my cute nephew

he was trying to jump jump.

isacc darling and mum:))))))))

'thorn' among the roses.haha

janani and ganga akka

me and sista !

me:)

janani

darlz :))

ladies :D

twins??

uma akka was teaching janani how to smile. HA !

janani:))

vimmi akka and athai:))

when the bombag burst.haha

sara annae

my cute athai:))

kanesh, 100% bangs !

vimmi akka. lols

cousin and cousin-in-law:)

VJUma

vimmi akka and kanesh

i dont know what the hell they were doing

'thorn' among roses

pari and vimmi akka

vimmi and ganga akka

janani and vimmi akka

sweets :))

CHEERS

vimmi and naz akka

vimmi and naz akka II

♥feels like insomnia

17 oct, saturday
Happy Diwali !!
was super fun!!
1st went to paati's house.
ate there.
should have came earlier so that i could have seen vana.
missed her tonnes.
so ya, ate at paati hse.
thn left to vimmi akka's house.
leena akka was there.
very pretty.haha.
as usual, sara annae was making fun of me.no life.haha.
played that bunga api thing. was kinda scared la.
haha. me and vijay annae are back to normal. but still reminds me of what happened.
haha. thn ate there. yums:))
drank liqour. haha. then after went to kanesh's hse.
watched ayan there. was msging diana. ate at kanesh hse also. was so freaking full la.
after long, went back home. was thinking about stuffs. irritating la. haha.
so that was my day:)
and once again, happy diwali!!

18 oct,sunday.
woke up in the morning.
went to thilaga chitti's house.
saw vana there.sooo cute la she:)
and my nephews,isacc and ashwin,were sooo freaking cute.
ashwin was sleepy, so couldnt play much with him.but still admired him.haha.
isacc is like only 3 months old and was superrrr cutee.
he kinda danced, kept moving and jumping. freaking cute la.
was msging diana. then there was this very friendly small girl.also cute la.
we left after that cause hadda prepare for open house.
was soo excited.
helped mum clean the house and stuff.good girl.haha.
everyone came.was talking to vimmi akka.
took pics.haha.played bombbags and bunga api.
this sara annae kept throwing bombbags at me.
so planned to put one inside his pocket.haha.
we did all kind of nonsense la.
and it was very very fun.
will be uploading the pics later.
aites bloggie.gtg.byeee:))

*think its funny to play with her feelings ah? bloody dog!!
you and all your bullshits.
your "i love you" is 8 letters, and so is "bullshit"
get a damn life la.

♥feels like insomnia

Thursday, October 15, 2009

thurs, 15 oct.
Happy Birthday Diana!
met diana at busstop.
for the 1st time she was early.
i was shocked la. haha.
was having a sad life in the bus.lol.
so ya, went to school. helped diana do art.
thn had assembly.went up to class.
did art, halfway got hyper. laugh laugh.
aftee that waited for devona and omar.
then bused to cosway pnt.
wanted to eat at pizza hut bt ended up eating at swensens.
so funny, was laughing like mental. haha.
then walk walk arnd.
left home 1st cos i needed to clean my super duper messy room.
so ya, went hme. cleaned my room finsh at arnd 12 plus?
and now my room looks clean and nice:)

fridae,16oct.
woke up in the morn.
had a bad headache.
bathed and all.
and now currently,
chatting wiv benji and msging diana.
feeling super bored la.
im super excited for diwali tmr:))
aites bloggie, gtg. byeee.

[[ what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away ]]

♥feels like insomnia

Monday, October 12, 2009

today morning went to school.
met diana as usual. haha, my "sista".
i seriously thot she looked like me la.
chem exam was kinda funny. lols.
thn afta that went to northpoint wiv diana and hannah
ate at mac.
i left early cos need go shop.
so sad, my pp8 is low. hopefully i top up soon.
wed will be going to school.
currently, msging ceiling! and benji.
haha. ive really have to listen to all their advices, its for my own good!
alrites, blog. tc. bye. loves!

*over you !

♥feels like insomnia

Saturday, October 10, 2009

currently i am using web sms to sms diana and chatting with aishah.
feeling kinda bored. diana is missing in action again. haha.
drama queen, always busy. lol.
gonna go watch the tv right now. bye bloggie.tc.loves.

*im taking back my love, ive given him too much:)

♥feels like insomnia

Friday, October 9, 2009

using the comp again.
currently, chatting with diana.
she is my ceiling and im her building.
funny!
haha, magic sia that thing.
feeling bored.
dont know what to blog.
okay, bye.haha.

♥feels like insomnia

kau membuat ku berantakan,
kau membuat ku tak karuan
kau membuat ku tak berdaya,
kau menolakku, acuhkan diriku
bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
kusadari ku tak sempurna,
aku bukan prempuan seperti yang kau inginkan
kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku?
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku
bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
kusadari ku tak sempurna,
aku bukan prempuan seperti yang kau inginkan
kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku?
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku
kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku?
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku

you've messed me up
you've screwed me up
i feel hopeless and powerless
cause you've denied me and ignored me
i wonder how to melt your heart of stone
i know im far from perfect,
im not a kind of girl you want
you've broken me into pieces with your attitude
don't you know that you've hurt me?
my heart is weary of trying to convince you,
this love is killing me
i wonder how to melt your heart of stone
i know im far from perfect,
im not a kind of girl you want
you've broken me into pieces with your attitude
don't you know that you've hurt me?
my heart is weary of trying to convince you,
this love is killing me
you've broken me into pieces with your attitude
don't you know that you've hurt me?
my heart is weary of convincing you,
this love is killing me
my heart is weary of convincing you,
this love is killing me

Sometimes, it's wrong to walk away
though you think it's over
Knowing, there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
You just want to change the way the world goes round
Tell me,
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see,
That's the way I feel, about you and me baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know
cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help, but think that this is wrong,we should be together
Back in, your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised
It was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me,
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say
I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel, about you and me baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know
cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moments gone
I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me,
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say
I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel, about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking i should know
cause I loved and lost the day I let,
yes i loved and lost the day i let,
yes i loved and lost the day i let you go

i must be real stupid to still love him
its obvious that all those were just lies and made up excuses,
but i just cant bring myself to forget him and move on.
more of like, i dont want to move on.
slap me someone.
there has to be a way to bring him back.
but words dont work at all.
lies after lies. excuses after excuses.
he build me up and tear me down.
see, somehow i cant forget him,
after all that we've been through.
so tell me, what hurts more?
thinking you should hate him
or knowing you don't?
if you give me chance,
i can love you right.
but you're telling me it wont be enough
baby, come back to me.
until you come back,
i cant breathe.
i was stupid to think that for actually one second you cared.
i keep on forgetting to forget about you.
i guess my wake up call was too too late.
sick of crying, tired of trying, yes im smiling but inside im dying.
move on??
is it karma or revenge?

♥feels like insomnia

its been super long since i post.
so lets post about today.
morn met diana at busstop at 7 am.
so ya, wlaked to northpoint.
diana super duper funny la.
she and her drama ah.haha.
met omar at mac.
he was super funny la.
thn hannah cme.
haha.
so ya, tried studying bt thnx to omar we cudnt.
thn ivan cme.omg!!
haha.
study study.
thn left at arnd 10plus.
on the way, so funny la!!haha
ss exam was okay la.
hpefully can pass.
thn afta skul walked arnd the school
evo camp:)
thn went to nrthpoint.
walk walk.
thn went to mac.
ate icecream and fries.
haha, funny hannah
thn afta a while bused bak hme.
alne at hme right now.
currently chatting with faris.
and listening to cinta in membunuhku and dik song.
super duper nice la.
found out the eng version.haha.
so ya, gonna go watch tv.
bye bloggie.

' my heart is weary of trying to convince you, this love is killing me.

Happy advanced burfdae to IVAN!!!
7 more days for ;DIANAAA's birthday!!

♥feels like insomnia